I spent the weekend in my apartment in front of a fan, naked. The humidity reminded me of Thailand and Ohio. Both places reminding me of what loneliness can teach you. Friday is when the heat started. It was already 80 when I got to work at 9am. I normally
I woke up from a nap to a protest out on the street. they chanted “No Justice, No peace.” I watched through the window and saw a man capturing it on his phone, down below on the street. I didn’t recognize the flag they carried. It was green and yellow.
I woke up at 6:30 this morning. I was anxious about a staff meeting that I would have to lead. I was scared of of the professional part of my professional job. I was afraid of losing myself in the language of management and never finding myself again, liking that
I’ve noticed that when I break up with a person I generally write a piece glorifying aloneness. Romanticizing solitude and my relationship with the dog or cat I’d get one day soon. When I broke up with C, I wrote all about the cabin in the middle of nowhere and
On the afternoon of June 9th I was offered a job. I would work a normal 9-5 Monday through Friday managing an adolescent residential treatment facility. A big girl job. A year ago I was seeking this position out because the rest of my life didn’t feel very stable. I
The I-5 can be a lonely place. I know this from experience. The cows and road kill don’t give you much solace when your mind is swirling with grief and anger. The occasional white egret flying over the stampeding highway punctuate the lonely drive with hope that something may change.
M is a filmmaker. When I was writing my screenplay he loaned me books on how to direct actors and how to write the most effective screenplay. His bookshelf is a resource precious to anyone interested in writing and filming a movie. He loves watching old movies and I feel
Yesterday, I watched 12 episodes of America’s Next Top Model, Season Three. It was my day off. Eva wins. I already knew that Eva wins because I watched season 3 in 2004 when I was 14 trying to ignore my anxiety and sadness that came with my first year of