Past Lovers
I was driving and you were smoking a bowl in the passenger seat. I was worried I would get in trouble if we were caught. “Nah. It’s legal in California.” […]
Mile Markers
On my way to the 580 West I passed graffiti that read Kill the Techies. The homeless encampment under the 580 and 80 overpass had been cleaned up and I […]
It’s the only thing left to do
I woke up this morning and realized I didn’t have any coffee. I walked to the corner store near my house in the tee shirt I woke up in and […]
Opening our Eyes
When I was dating Chad, I felt my awareness opening wider and wider. We would sit across from one another in his Halloween decorated room and open each other’s eyes. […]
Tally Marks
She is leaving tomorrow. I am sitting on her roommate’s bed and she is packing. She will leave our facility and go to Utah. It seems like that’s where they […]
Gardening and Nightmares
I had decided earlier in the day to start gardening. It is said to be therapeutic. Putting your hands in the soil and then watching growth. Allowing growth. Nurturing growth. […]
Anxiety Sucks
I take a client to a refuge recovery meeting every Monday. It is a Buddhist version of 12 step recovery. The woman is an aging self proclaimed Dead Head and […]
Call for stories
Yesterday I interviewed a man named Rudy. He came to my home and I felt nervous about the intimacy that involved because he was a stranger to me. I […]
A Love for the End of the World
I got off the BART at Powell. As I walked, I looked down at the google maps app open on my phone. My ear buds were in playing a song […]
Head and the Heart
I texted you when I decided that we had to be over. I texted you because I knew if I called, you would change my mind because I love you. […]
Grey Matter
At my high school graduation our history teacher said, “You Simmons sisters, you have to speak up. You have a lot to say. You have to say it.” Later I […]
Dancing in Coffee Shops
I sat at the bar in Hawk and Pony on Telegraph. I liked sitting at this bar, because I got to watch the staff interact. They were all artist, hipster […]
Fight or Flight
In my interview they told me that they had read my blog. At this I cringed. This meant they knew. They knew I was searching. They knew I was just […]
I killed a Raccoon
I had a dream about you last night. I thought I was finished thinking about you. I do a really good job of blocking you out during the day. […]
A kiss goodnight
I started shaving my armpits and legs again. For a while it felt like I was the kind of person who didn’t shave their armpits or legs. But then I […]
Kitty love
I stared at Rue the cat while writing lots of pages. She lay next to me on top of my previous drafts. I stared at her calico fur and the […]
